June 20, 2013

My Journey to 26.2: The Freak Out (005)

Well, it finally happened.  I knew it would someday.  Just like Jerry Maguire...

On a Tuesday night when I was calmly walking through my summer schedule, desperately searching for a time when I could take a vacation that wouldn't be laden with long runs...the "holy cow, I'm running a marathon" freak out happened.  It wasn't pretty.

For a long time, I've been calmly working through my training in anticipation of October 27th when I will attempt the 26.2 miles of the Marine Corps Marathon.  As you all know, I spent a long time putting together a thoughtful training plan.  I feel good about this plan.  I modified what felt like a gazilion others to put together one that will work for me.  I have no reason to doubt it.

But in that moment, I started seeing all these numbers...17, 20, 23, 56, 18, etc.  Daily mileage, weekly mileage, monthly mileage.  It started weighing on me.  How in the world was I going to run that much...in August and September no less, when this area can be sweltering.  For the most part, my panic was all internal but I shared some of my anxiety with a friend.  A few minutes later, my phone was ringing with some helpful advice - relax, take a deep breath and trust your training.  She reminded me that I never thought I could run 13.1 miles a few years ago and she's right.

Someday I WILL run 26.2. Maybe I can't go that far today, but on October 27th, I will.

Ever freaked out about an impending race?  How did you handle it?
{Christine}

14 comments:

  1. You will do it! And I will be out there cheering for you.

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  2. You can do it! Trust the training and put your heart into it, you can't fail!
    I have yet to have my freak out moment about the WDW Marathon in January...my mileage is pretty low so fr (10 miles per week) this is good bc I am healing my knee and need to build back up slowly. I'm sure once I get into higher mileage I'll be having the same feelings!
    Karen @cinderella_runs

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  3. I had a mini freak out when I thought about running 13.1; I think it is normal :) But you have ran so many half marathon's, I know you can do 26.2!!! You got this!!

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  4. Oh my goodness, I totally panicked right before my first marathon! For like 2 weeks leading up to it I was sure I wasn't going to finish. The training is intense, but at the same time if you miss a run here or there it's not the end of the world so don't beat yourself up about it, enjoy your summer and your vacations so that you don't end up resenting the training. Even though I try my best to follow a plan I am constantly adjusting it to work with my schedule. Come race day just trust your training and crossing the finish line will be amazing! We'll totally need to meet up at MCM!

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  5. I had a Goofy freak out moment last fall so I feel your pain! You CAN do this, Christine! You will find that as you run longer and longer, the miles will come a little easier. Not easy, but easier! Best of luck to you!

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  6. You will do great....and as a side note, I am looking forward to reading about it when you do! Keep up the awesome work, you are an inspiration to all of us starting out!!!

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  7. Any time I have a waiting period or time to let anxiety build up, I have a freak out. It could be for a one mile run or it could be for a marathon - my brain likes to mess with me.

    You're going to do great!

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  8. Don't be silly, you're going to be amazing! Not to mention you will have some wonderful friends at that race (and on social media!) to give support and encouragement when needed.

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  9. You can totally do it -- trust your training!!!

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  10. Definitely! While waiting FOREVER to start last year's Wine and Dine. There was a whole lot of who-sah's and earlobe running (courtesy of Bad Boys 2) until we finally started. Lol!! You know you'll be fine. My fave mantra...I GOT THIS. :):):)

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  11. I'm running my first 26.2 in October and am FREAKING out. It's like 4 months away and I haven't run more than 7 miles in a few months. How am I going to do it?!?

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  12. I can do it-I know you can! Just in the short time I've been reading your blog I've watched you become a stronger runner. And you've done enough races now to know that the mental aspect of this 'running game' can sometimes be rougher to deal with than the physical aspect. And you know that one day next week or even next month you'll be having a great run and think to yourself-"I SO have this in the bag". We are all rooting for you!

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  13. Yes, we are all rooting for your Christine!

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  14. Wow, what amazing feedback and support - THANK YOU!!! <3

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