With nearly no exceptions, I think about the Richmond Marathon every time I run. Most of the time, I feel sad and have a bit of negative self talk going on. After training very hard, it's been tough to move on from that race. I still feel a bit sad about the outcome, but on Sunday, everything changed. I was FINALLY able to mentally move on.
After agonizing over the fact that my training pace was significantly faster than my race pace, I told myself enough. I told myself that I couldn't change the events of the morning of November 15th. I did the absolute best that I could in the moment and got myself across the finish line with a tear-stained face and limping.
My motto for Richmond was fight for it. At the time, this meant fight for a PR, preferably one under 4:10 and ideally under 4:00. I trained hard and was prepared for those times and yet neither of those goals happened. But I did PR. And by golly, I crossed a finish line despite the previous ten miles sucking beyond belief.
I've had more than enough time to reflect and consider this race. I was ready to abandon everything about it - the clothes, shoes, mental mottos, etc. On my run on Sunday, I reconsidered that maybe this motto means something a little different now. Maybe I need to fight to regain my running mojo and find my confidence. It's time to identify some new goals, ones that I'll fight for. After putting to bed the disappointment, "what ifs" and challenges of Richmond Marathon, I'm ready to start fighting again.
How do you get back on track after a tough race?