The other night I felt the spark reignite. I am ready to start marathon training again. Sure, my knee is improving but still not 100%. Sure, I'm still unsure how I'll approach this marathon. But there's something more this time...the support for our uniformed service members and their families. They need Fisher House. And Fisher House benefits from runners who fundraise.
A few weeks ago, I was really stressed out about running a marathon again. My knee was a wreck, my motivation was at an all time low, and I couldn't wrap my brain around how I might make it happen. Adam and I chatted for a few minutes and our conversation went something like this...
Adam: Why are you worried?
Me: My knee, my interest level, letting Danielle down, letting myself down.
Adam: Ok, let's break this down a bit more. What are you doing about your knee?
Me: Focusing on strength training, taking a break from running and listening to my body.
Adam: Ok, that sounds good. Why are you worried about letting people down?
Me: I might not run a PR. I might not be ready to train for a sub-4:00. I always want to run my best and especially since I'm running with a Fisher House jersey, I want to run well.
Adam: Who cares if you don't PR? Do you think Fisher House cares? Let's talk more about what it means to run for them...why do you want to run for them?
Me: (long pause) For you...for Lisa's friends...for people like Aaron and Eliza...for anyone who couldn't otherwise be with their injured service member....I know this matters a lot more than a stupid marathon PR. (long pause)
Adam: Ok. Now you know why you're running, right?
I do. I know what matters. What matters isn't my time this go 'round. Sure, I would love to PR! Sure, I would love to run a sub-4:00. But being an active fundraiser for Fisher House to help them raise money and awareness for their cause is more important. I run for the families staying at a Fisher House...just like the one I pass each day on my way to work. Sometimes you just need a little perspective. I still don't have my training plan or strategy nailed down but somehow I'll cross the finish line in October!
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