On Sunday, I went out for a short run around the neighborhood. I still have a bit of knee pain but it's improved a lot and is tolerable. So off I went! I made it 3.5 miles at a pretty decent clip and I contemplated my running status...how I feel, my goals, my interest level, etc.
During this run it finally hit me that my relationship with running has been like that good old Facebook relationship status, "it's complicated." I love running for the endless mental and physical benefits but I just haven't been feeling it lately. And if I'm being truly honest, I haven't ever gotten my groove back completely following my epically terrible day at the Richmond Marathon. Sure, I've moved on from the deep disappointment I felt and I've embraced running again (even earning a 10k PR in February) but it hasn't been a major player in my life.
It's a weird feeling. I've built a network of friends though running. My social media feeds are dominated by running so I've been eschewing them a bit. I almost feel like I don't belong anymore...in the online world I created for myself! I'm not looking for pity - it is what it is. I'm enjoying alternative activities and still staying fit. It's been a little strange to feel disconnected and disinterested in running.
After reading my friend Megan's recent post on running being a hobby, I couldn't help but relate. While I love running, it doesn't pay my bills or take care of me, etc. It's just a hobby. I was probably letting myself feel a bit inadequate about my running unnecessarily. If I'm enjoying it, I do it and if not, find something new. It's really that simple!
In just a few weeks, I'll be lacing up my sneakers to start training for Marine Corps Marathon as a member of Team Fisher House. I know that will give me adequate motivation to move from "it's complicated" to "in a relationship" with running again!
How do you handle lulls in your running?