I just do. It's been 3 months and 15 days since I have run more than 2 miles without pain.
Last Wednesday marked 5 weeks at physical therapy. My therapist was really pleased with my progress and strength gains. He figured it made sense to put me on the treadmill for a test. After a 1/4 mile warm-up, I cranked up the speed to 6.2 mph and started running. I smiled. Actually I probably grinned. And then the pain set in quickly. I shook it off, willing it away, but unfortunately it didn't go away. After less than half a mile, I admitted defeat. It hurt too much.
When I went to the ortho before the first of the year, I committed to get well. I promised myself I wouldn't just get to a "good enough" spot and likely relapse again. So I admitted defeat last week in hopes that I won't feel that pain again for a long time. I want to get healthy and strong enough to run pain-free for months and years down the road.
Tomorrow I go back to the orthopedic for a recheck. I have no idea what the future holds, but one thing is certain, I want to get back to the open roads where I often clear my head and find comfort in the solitude of being alone with my thoughts. I simply want to run again.
More on my injury issues:
- That pesky knee
- My plan for a healthier knee