February 11, 2016

I miss running

I just do. It's been 3 months and 15 days since I have run more than 2 miles without pain.
I miss running


Last Wednesday marked 5 weeks at physical therapy. My therapist was really pleased with my progress and strength gains. He figured it made sense to put me on the treadmill for a test. After a 1/4 mile warm-up, I cranked up the speed to 6.2 mph and started running. I smiled. Actually I probably grinned. And then the pain set in quickly. I shook it off, willing it away, but unfortunately it didn't go away. After less than half a mile, I admitted defeat. It hurt too much.

When I went to the ortho before the first of the year, I committed to get well. I promised myself I wouldn't just get to a "good enough" spot and likely relapse again.  So I admitted defeat last week in hopes that I won't feel that pain again for a long time. I want to get healthy and strong enough to run pain-free for months and years down the road.

Tomorrow I go back to the orthopedic for a recheck. I have no idea what the future holds, but one thing is certain, I want to get back to the open roads where I often clear my head and find comfort in the solitude of being alone with my thoughts. I simply want to run again.

More on my injury issues:
- That pesky knee
- My plan for a healthier knee

{Christine}

17 comments:

  1. I feel your pain so much! I haven't run more than a mile since early December. There is no set diagnosis just that I experience hip pain. I am still working on increasing my strength and flexibility...and taking time off to rest. So frustrating to want to be running and not able to.

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    1. It totally sucks doesn't it? It will definitely make me appreciate running more...that I know! Hope you're back to your old running self soon!

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  2. I'm so sorry Christine!
    I have delt with a work injury in one foot for 3 years now that has kept me from running like I wanted, though I think I am finally at the end of it (hopefully) but I am only telling you that to let you know I totally feel your pain, and I know what your going through!
    Keep up on the PT, and you'll get it back!!
    I will definitely keep ya in my thoughts, I know you and the Dr's will find a way to get you back doing what you love!!!!

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    1. Thanks Kristy! I know this is just a minor setback but for the first time in a while I actually want to run. Murphy's Law, right?

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  3. I'm so sorry to hear this, Christine. You've got the right mindset though - instead of just trying to put a band aid on it and get to a place where you can run without significant pain, its better to let yourself heal 100%. I hope that the appointment goes well tomorrow and that the ortho can help provide some more answers.

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    1. Thanks, Kathryn. As much as it sucks, I am trying hard to make sure I get this issue resolved for a while. Fingers crossed for some good feedback today.

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  4. Sorry that the pain came back on the treadmill :( I hope the check this week goes better.

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    1. Thanks, girl! I was so disappointed but it's part of this process I suppose.

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  5. I'm sorry that you're struggling! What a bummer. Hopefully, your knee will start cooperating soon!

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    1. I hope so too Jaime! Ready to send this crappy knee somewhere else.

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  6. Aww so sorry this pain is still persistent. I have felt like this before and I kept thinking I was "good enough" and I would start running again. Of course I was not fully healed. It took me MANY months of PT and a summer without running to fully recover. I still am at a point that I am afraid to really "push" myself or stop my "run walk".
    Hang in there. I know it is frustrating. But look at it this way. This is the best time of year to be laid up ( if you have to be). It's been rather cold out!

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    1. You are so right my friend! Brr it has been absolutely frigid here and it's supposed to be even colder this weekend. Our area doesn't handle cold well and I told Adam we needed to get some firewood so we can stay warm inside. :)

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  7. Christine, I'm so sorry that you haven't been able to run. I know you've put in a lot of effort with your PT and have been very patient. I hope you receive good news at your ortho visit. Maybe he can shed some light on the situation? Fingers crossed for you!

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  8. Awww, I feel your void. I am a little over a month right now and although my Doc said I could try at the end of this month, it doesn't mean I will be successful, he already warned me I may need a full three months. It is a long time. I wish you felt better! Hang in there, i now it is hard :(

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  9. I'm sorry you still aren't able to run! Good for you for committing to getting completely well rather than pushing through it, as hard as I know that is. Hope things go well at your orthopedics appointment!

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  10. Oh Christine!! I am so sorry!! I think the ortho is definitely the way to go. Thinking of you!! XOXO

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